Here is my testimonial for @hectorshere :
I have type 1 bipolar and….
Suicide was my escape in a world where my depression had won. Since my first suicide attempt, which occurred in the context of my first and most serious manic episode and consequently deep deep depression in 2018; I tried to kill myself. Attempted it twice, along with self harm.
I relapsed in 2019 got 4 months manic and then 8 months depressed 2019/2020. I was on mood stabilisers during my manic episode which helped me get less suicidal for that depression bout.
I would just like to express to anyone who is feeling suicidal that this is one tiny moment / month / year in your long long life. There will always be those cyclical hurdles that u have to jump. But the feeling of overcoming suicidal thoughts and coming out the flip side, stronger and better than ever is worth it. You learn to relish life and the nature around you. Exercise and a healthy diet are crucial for feeling good. Self care and a healthy routine will prevent u from ever being suicidally depressed again.
Welcome to the Upside Down 